Another morning waking up with a feeling of dread in my stomach. I arrive early at work,and consider not waiting for FJ. Surprisingly, he is early today and takes my hand. I feel too exhausted to bring up the after work situation and instead we hold hands and chat and laugh together. Before we know it, we're late for work and have to run..... Oops!
Lunchtimes on a Friday are tight as he only gets 30 mins. As I don't see him sat/sun I like us to hook up. Today, he comes within seconds, gets up and says he needs to get back to work. I feel so frustrated and used. He does at least give me a kiss and says sorry. Later as I eat lunch with friends, the overwhelming feeling of sadness washes over me. They are discussing holidays with their partners and I simply feel like a failure. What is so wrong that no one loves me enough to be with me? As they discuss destinations, I can't help but wonder if I can go on living.
Miss Katen: I know you read my blog as you posted something absurd there today. PLEASE listen up.....
ReplyDeleteYou deserve better! This man is using you! He will never be yours! True love is never built on lies.
There is someone out there just for you. Someone who will put you first and shout about his love for you from the rooftops!
Have some self respect. Do the right thing! Cut the married, cheating, lying bastard loose.
While you remain in a small part of his life, you are not open to find your true partner.
Feel free to continue to comment on my blog, just please remember...there are many betrayed wives that read. Your tone can cause them a great deal of extra pain. I can't tolerate that and I will either hammer you verbally or delete your comments all together.
Please make the smart choice soon. By being selfish and needy, you will eventually crush another woman's heart and still end up alone. Why would you want to do that?
Shawnthewife